What Sarah Said

And it came to me then that every plan is a tiny prayer to father time

As I stared at my shoes in the ICU that reeked of piss and 409

And I rationed my breathes as I said to myself that I'd already taken too much today

As each descending peak of the LCD took you a little farther away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines in a place where we only say goodbye

It stung like a violent wind that out memories depend on a faulty camera in our minds

But I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose than to have never lain beside at all

And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground as the TV entertained itself

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room

Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news

And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads

But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"

So who's going to watch you die?

This is a song from Death Cab for Cutie. I've been listening to this over and over, trying to decide if I think this is true. "Love is watching someone die"  but die in what way? Peaceful- sure, I actually watched my Papa pass on June 17, 2004, that's a day I will never forget. But what about those painful, unbearable deaths. No matter how much I loved someone, I don't want that to be my last memory of them. 

What if the person you loved wasn't saved, and you couldn't do anything to help? Could you watch them die? Knowing what they will endure for all eternity. Could you seriously watch that person die?

Mr. Gibbard, your lyrics are impeccable sometimes and other times I see you have no hope. That's sad. 

I know that this blog is called "Inspiration for the Uninspired"... hmm, lately I'm sure my posts haven't been very inspiring, being about death and all the crazyness of my life right now. I apologize, I'm sure I'll get something inspiring here soon. 

On a lighter note, I'm heading to Florida tomorrow. Going to Orlando, meet some superheros and whatnot. I'm pretty excited and all... I just hope I can handle my family for this time, sometimes I need a vacation from my vacation to recoop from them.