no one said it would be easy, they only said it would be worth it.

This has been a testy week for me... actually knowing you are limited on a phone conversation is so tough for me to comprehend... not being able to contact the one you think about most is so hard! I'm getting through it though... I've learned that the times you speak are very very sweet and should be enjoyed to the very last minute. I don't believe I've ever been so sad to hang up the phone... thirty minutes later I send a text message and the conversation precedes. Its not the same, it is really hard to know that you can't just pick up the phone to sent a message or to see if he has called. I was sad lastnight, no lie. We were talking on IM on Facebook... its just so different, I can't describe things like I would over the phone, and I can't hear his voice to see if he's picked up on my joke, or is understanding what I'm trying to put across... Its changed, its made me realize how much I can miss someone... how much it really hurts. I cried lastnight... for no apparent reason, other than the fact that we can't really do anything to contact each other... its so tough, I know I will get through it... I know that he will too!!!!! Its just going to take a lot of will power and faith.

On a brighter side, I did buy Tim something today... (he's probably going to read this and wonder) and I've written a short letter... :D I'm excited... I love giving things... I hope he likes it!