Wow! Isn't God just so amazing?
Just this week I have been having a very dry, fruitless, boring, dull everything basically. Especially in the spiritual aspect of my life.
Waking up this morning was so hard, I did not want to go to church, I'd much rather lay in bed... and pity myself.
How pathetic? I had such a hard time this morning, waking up, showering, getting ready and even riding to church. I was just so incredibly distracted. Never the less, I picked apart the praise and worship in my head, kept thinking about my week, and what needs to be done, and what I was going to do in the afternoon.
PITIFUL.
I was so distracted, I wasn't getting into God... I was tired, extremely discouraged... and I felt like everyone could tell. It seemed that everyone was looking right at me... Terrible eh?
OH yes.
We sit down, I still can't concentrate on anything... I'm spacing out, and someone even asked me this morning if I was actually here... I answered.. "no"... because I wasn't, I couldn't home in on any one person or conversation, I couldn't speak to anyone... I was being distracted like none other today... Terrible.
We had a guest speaker from Raleigh/ Durham today, Taylor Stewart... and WOW he's amazing. I think he had been reading my mail or something...
He's speaking about all these things that have been going on in my head, straight up telling me what I should do... WOW. God you are amazing... Today was total confirmation that God is real... Thank you Jesus!
I hadn't doubted that God was real, but sometimes I question what I am doing with my life, why am I believing in Christ? What's the point... The point is to love.
Anyway, the speaker had used the exact words as I had used earlier this week... everything being "DRY and DULL" and that we need to "WAKE UP" we need to pray for God to WAKE US UP.
Anyway, he used a verse from Job, and I cannot find it tonight, it is something along the lines of a tree that is famished, it whithers up because it has no nourishment, the roots curl up and dry out, it looks dead, it has no fruit... however... when the tree is watered... the roots are deep and nourished and the tree that once looked dead is full and green...
ANYONE have the passage for that??????
Anyway... The past few weeks I have been fascinated with trees, and how amazing they are, and how different and unique they are... Just like us... as Christians.... Also, this verse can be used to describe our walk with God... when we are praying and seeking God daily... are steadfast and earnest about our walk with Him, we have a fruit... love, joy, peace, patience, kindness... you know Galatians 9... But when we put God on the back burner, our hearts, our life doesn't produce as much fruit... we might look dead... but our hearts are still beating... we are just going through a dry time... and that is exactly what I have been going through lately....
Everything today was totally amazing... I am so happy that I am not the only one who deals with dull times, I need to be woken up... and today certainly did it...
Not to mention, today he had us turn in our Bibles to Ephesians, and on that page, I had written beside a verse... "Prayer for 2008, God PLEASE wake me up." HOW COOL!?
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