reality strikes.

I wonder why there are times when everything seems to come crashing down...

Two deaths this week... one, my great grandfather- I'm fine, oh yes, I'm okay... I hurt for my family though... They ache, their hearts ache... Its such a strange grief, death is.

Get a call this morning, my aunt's absolute best friend (should have been sister) found dead... the morning of my great grandfather's funeral... They say a heart-attack, at 40... She was an addict, recovering? I'm not too sure... Times like this are just sad.

Depression has shown is evil face again, I've hurt so much this week for the ones that I love... SO MUCH. Sacrifices have been made, this seems like the longest week of my life... Its horrible. I'm searching for strength, peace and more love. 

I'm worn

I'm torn

I know I'm not lost.