Wednesday, July 8, 2009

doubt?

Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life. Romans 6:4

Such encouragement! After weeks, even months of feeling doubt and uncertainty, I finally let go of my pride and opened up about the battle inside my heart. I've been such a target for insecurity in the ONE thing that I have been secure in for at least 10 years. My salvation and faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I have been so wrapped up "knowing" that the prayer I had prayed years ago was no longer valid. "Its like being saved all over again". Returning to the basics of Christianity. Realizing that you cannot be the one to save yourself.
Knowing that Christ held onto MY sin and I was with Him and DIED with Him, now I've been RAISED with Him and NO LONGER have to DIE.

Whenever our conscience condemns us, we will be reassured that God is greater than our conscience and knows everything. 1 John
3:20

My heart, not matter how often I feel I am certainly geared towards Hell, is being held in the hands of my Loving Father. He knows everything. He knows that I have felt this uncertainty and doubt. He hasn't been absent, He has seen it all. Its my job to re-establish the relationship. Its my job to pursue Him. He's a gentleman, He won't force His way in, I must allow Him in and allow Him to change my heart.

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