to worship you.

life's been crazy. Busy. i'm not in school this semester, so I've been able to work- save money to buy a new car and camera. my heart's been in limbo with what i am to do starting next semester. i thought that what i wanted to do was occupational therapy with children. lately i've been feeling worship is my call... i've been told that i will be a worship leader. now, i'm just confused. still young, trying to not lose heart. should I go back to Liberty? is it a bad thing to say if I could do it all over again i would? i constantly miss lynchburg and the campus. crazy right? my experience was not a bad one with the school, it was the friends i associated myself with. i became a stale christian. i didn't grow. i went to liberty expecting a life changing experience, i know that most have recieved that, however i didn't get it. it was all my fault too... i was let free. had to accountability. spent time with "friends" that just brought me down. brought me down so much. i want to go back... now to be a worship leader. i think it will be wonderful experience... i want to completely submerge myself in the music there. i want to write, lead, sing and praise Jesus. i've grown a lot. a whole lot.

I must be insane.

I have signed up for a 530 am boot camp. I will be working out for an hour every mon/wed/fri.
I bought new workout gear! A matt and new weights! I'm so excited.

I do know that I will regret this for a few days... However the final outcome is going to be totally worth it!

I will try to keep you updated.

I saw Julie and Julia last night, its a fantastic movie. I loved it.
It has really inspired me to cook more than I do now.

I didn't get into the school for the semester, the program is closed... I've been waitlisted... :( This semester there will be no school! I hope to save money to buy a new car (at least new to me).

There are exciting things in store for me. So many things.

shakened, but not moved.

I can feel it... something about to start.
Lately I've been moving into a deeper worship, singing until I'm hoarse. In my car, the shower, leading at church.
I'm learning so much. I've been super blessed with a Bible Study on Monday nights... its small but so great, I fully enjoy getting a weekly dose of girly-filled fun. Prayer and fellowship with other women my age... our 20-somethings. I'm really feeling more of a call to worship, to lead others in, to grow deeper with God and worship Him daily. I'm noticing a change in my spirit, I'm more gracious and patient with people. I don't get as frustrated with some. I'm not going to school this semester... So I'm hoping that something will open up, more of a full-time job type thing and more opportunities to minister in church.
Today has been a jarring day... I'm just trying to figure things out.

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My Favorite Photo (I've Ever Taken) Brickfish

Funny :)

How would you pronounce this child's name?

Le-a

Leah?? NO
Lee - A?? NOPE
Lay - a?? NO
Lei?? Guess Again.

This child attends a school in Livingston Parish, LA. Her mother is irate because everyone is getting her name wrong. It's pronounced "Ledasha". When the Mother was asked about the pronunciation of the name, she said, "the dash don't be silent."

SO, if you see something come across your desk like this please remember to pronounce the dash. If they axe you why, tells them the dash don't be silent.

doubt?

Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life. Romans 6:4

Such encouragement! After weeks, even months of feeling doubt and uncertainty, I finally let go of my pride and opened up about the battle inside my heart. I've been such a target for insecurity in the ONE thing that I have been secure in for at least 10 years. My salvation and faith in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I have been so wrapped up "knowing" that the prayer I had prayed years ago was no longer valid. "Its like being saved all over again". Returning to the basics of Christianity. Realizing that you cannot be the one to save yourself.
Knowing that Christ held onto MY sin and I was with Him and DIED with Him, now I've been RAISED with Him and NO LONGER have to DIE.

Whenever our conscience condemns us, we will be reassured that God is greater than our conscience and knows everything. 1 John 3:20

My heart, not matter how often I feel I am certainly geared towards Hell, is being held in the hands of my Loving Father. He knows everything. He knows that I have felt this uncertainty and doubt. He hasn't been absent, He has seen it all. Its my job to re-establish the relationship. Its my job to pursue Him. He's a gentleman, He won't force His way in, I must allow Him in and allow Him to change my heart.

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My Favorite Photo (I've Ever Taken) Brickfish

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December 2008.

"...bye bye miss american pie..."

Psalm 55:22

Cast your cares on the LORD
and he will sustain you;
he will never let the righteous fall.

:)

I'm weakest when I first wake and right before I sleep.
I'm happiest in my dreams and drift away during reality.


I'm trying my hardest to depend on God, allow Him to love me.
To fill the empty spaces in my heart.

"He heals the brokenhearted
And binds up their wounds."